Can you feel the pain inside sometimes in my mind?
In the land of loneliness the seas of blood run cold
Is the feeling lost inside within the sins of all mankind?
Time after time we stood united on we go

Fly far away don't let the world pass you by?
Live for the day when we must stand and survive
Now we face the judgment day our souls will feel the pain
Hear the screams of my world through the rain

Silent fields of despair my tears in the rain
Pain in my heart bleeding through
One day we'll be back for one moment in time
Endlessly searching for you...

Who can cure my emptiness inside for this time?
Suffering from loneliness my dreams and hopes will die
No more feelings left inside my blackened heart I cannot hide
Time after time our souls divided on we cry

Fly far away don't leave your own past behind
Live for the day another year passes by
Now we turn to face our fear there's nothing more to say
Still your dreams and my nightmares remain


  • The Prophecy

    • As darkness claims all light
    Leaving the land in Eternal Night
    Amidst the dead and innocent cries
    Only then The Chosen One shall rise

    Enter thy world but fear not
    I walked through the darkness and shadows, I've fought
    So open your hearts and open your minds
    For inside, only knowledge will you find...
    Wall Of Infamy

    The Chosen One
  • Muhammad Sufyan Bin Roslan
  • Singapore Polytechnic [DICT]
  • 11 March 1989
  • Servant to Allah S.W.T
  • Disciple to Prophet Muhammad S.A.W
  • Forward for SPMLS United
  • Lead Guitarist for Disasterpiece
  • Leader Of The Rebel Alliance

    Thy Chosen Amor
  • Allah S.W.T
  • Family and friends
  • Her*
  • The underground scene

    Thy Chosen Hatred
  • The Bush Administration and Israel for crimes against the Islamic world. Or to the world actually.
  • Idiots like George Bush, Donald Rumsfeld, Tony Blair and Ariel Sharon just to name a few
  • Matreps and Minahreps. Don't taint our society. Throw yourselves down the drain and rid us of your stupidity please

    Disclaimer
    This blog is the property of Muhammad Sufyan. If you don't like it and have no constructive criticisms, please keep it to yourself. I'm sure someone else cares about them, cos I really don't have time for narrow-minded fools like you. Thank you very much. Oh, and please, throw yourself down the drain to and rid us of filth like you.
    • The Chosen Significant Other
  • **Azlin

    The Chosen Confidantes

  • Abdillah Agger*
  • Abang'Escaflowne'Din*
  • Adawiyah*
  • Adi*
  • Arep*
  • Amir(The Reverence)*
  • Amir(The Forgiver)*
  • Amalina*
  • Azhar*
  • Fhaizal Eleventhfinger Drummer*
  • Hadi Brengsek*
  • Friendster*
  • Haryanti*
  • Hilmi*
  • Kakak'Empress'Ain*
  • Liyana*
  • Lydia Natasya*
  • Mahirah*
  • Miza*
  • Nani*
  • Nazif*
  • Nurul*
  • N.Nadiah*
  • Ridzwan*
  • Shakinah*
  • SPMLS*
  • Suhailah*
  • Syafiq(Sarep)*
  • **Syafique Esperansas*
  • Syahid Masnor Gerrard*
  • Syikin*
  • Wan Emocore*
  • Zac*
  • Zee*

    • Monday, September 18, 2006

    1:13 am

    FUCK CRISTIANO RONALDO!!!!!!!!
    BLOODY IDIOT, DON'T WANT TO COUNTER-ATTACK
    WASTE TIME ON THE BALL. THINK HIS DRIBBLING SKILLS SO GOOOOOD!! THEN KENA TACKLE AND IT LEADS TO ADEBAYOR'S FUCKER GOAL

    ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

    huh...    Ok,feel so much better now after that. Manchester United just lost 1-0 to Arse-Anal. ok, don't want to talk about that.

    Went to Changi General Hospital just now to see Atuk. He got sudden heart attack yesterday. But he seems ok to me right now. Kak Yana, my cousin and head-nurse at Changi General Hospital, said that Atuk's condition is wierd since the doctors couldn't find anything that could have caused the heart attack.

    Atuk's 68, but he's real strong for his age. I remember that ime he played soccer with me and my cousins. My cousins are national footballers, having come out in newspapers quite a few times. Anyway, my atuk is physically very fit for his age, so the heart attack was somewhat surprising.

    Bu still, atuk's sense of humor is still intact. He keep on pestering the doctor to let him go home when the doc came to check on him. His reason? He want to watch Man Utd vs Arsenal tonight. But its lucky they didn't show it there since he might get a heart attack again after seeing what Cristiano Ronaldo did.haha.

    Went straight back home after that. Was thinking of going to Tampines and see the RYC thingy, but don't know what bus to take and my EZ-Link's only good for one more trip. So, go back home and manage to catch Chelsea vs Liverpool second half. After that, onlined for a while, looking for guitar tabs ...

    Now, for my state of mind these days. I'm holding on. But barely. Even my parents noticed this change in me. Said that I was awfully quiet. How could I be myself when this constant war between my heart and my mind is reaching breaking point? Liyana told me to stop thinking too much, but I can't. Its just me. Even the smallest thing can make me think alot about it.
    My teacher said that I had a analytical mind. And I totally agree. When I see something, or for instance, in tactical situations, I not only think of how to defeat the enemy, I will think of a way to appease them or maybe make them my ally. Its just me. I don't think of just one solutions. I think of a dozen failsafes.

    And sometimes, it really kills me to be thinking too much. It's fucking hurts when your mind says something and your heart says the opposite. Right now, my mind's saying that its right for me to turn my back on her and walk away, for friends can't have feelings for each other. But my heart rebelled at that thought. Its telling me to stay put. Be there for her. Telling me not to give up.

    And as always, my mind's rebelling at that by telling me that she's not going to change her mind, her heart's set, you can never be more than just friend's with her. Walk away now before you end up getting even more hurt. My heart countered by telling me to have Faith

    And this is FUCKING TEARING ME APART

    It bloody is. I wish I could be like others. Just follow what my heart says. But I can't. You know how I feel don't you Syafique? You've been through this before.

    I'm caught in the middle now. Everytime I see her onlined, I have this burning desire and longing of my heart to chat with her. But everytime I almost did that, my mind will reason out why I shouldn't...give me reasons why. Just like the other day at Plaza Singapura. Yes, I did saw her, for I walked on the fourth floor first before going down. When walking pass, my heart was telling me to turn. but my mind said no. Just look ahead. And I did part of each.

    But now, I'm really torn between the two. Which way? WHICH WAY?!
    And for the record, no one can help me with this. This means you, my friends. Thank you for your concern Syafique, Anggun and Liyana. But this is one war I have to win by my own. And the only one that can help me is God.

    God, please, help me make the correct decision. You are the only one I turn to in my time of need. I need you now, more than ever. Please God, give me guidance in taking the right path.
    Amin.

    P.S. I just got my new timetable. And I L-O-V-E it. Go home at 12 on Thurs and Wed. WAKAKAKA!!!!

    2 P.S GET WELL SOON ATUK!! I WANT TO PLAY SOCCER WITH YOU AGAIN!!hehe









    ___~Why do I even bother...