Can you feel the pain inside sometimes in my mind?
In the land of loneliness the seas of blood run cold
Is the feeling lost inside within the sins of all mankind?
Time after time we stood united on we go

Fly far away don't let the world pass you by?
Live for the day when we must stand and survive
Now we face the judgment day our souls will feel the pain
Hear the screams of my world through the rain

Silent fields of despair my tears in the rain
Pain in my heart bleeding through
One day we'll be back for one moment in time
Endlessly searching for you...

Who can cure my emptiness inside for this time?
Suffering from loneliness my dreams and hopes will die
No more feelings left inside my blackened heart I cannot hide
Time after time our souls divided on we cry

Fly far away don't leave your own past behind
Live for the day another year passes by
Now we turn to face our fear there's nothing more to say
Still your dreams and my nightmares remain


  • The Prophecy

    • As darkness claims all light
    Leaving the land in Eternal Night
    Amidst the dead and innocent cries
    Only then The Chosen One shall rise

    Enter thy world but fear not
    I walked through the darkness and shadows, I've fought
    So open your hearts and open your minds
    For inside, only knowledge will you find...
    Wall Of Infamy

    The Chosen One
  • Muhammad Sufyan Bin Roslan
  • Singapore Polytechnic [DICT]
  • 11 March 1989
  • Servant to Allah S.W.T
  • Disciple to Prophet Muhammad S.A.W
  • Forward for SPMLS United
  • Lead Guitarist for Disasterpiece
  • Leader Of The Rebel Alliance

    Thy Chosen Amor
  • Allah S.W.T
  • Family and friends
  • Her*
  • The underground scene

    Thy Chosen Hatred
  • The Bush Administration and Israel for crimes against the Islamic world. Or to the world actually.
  • Idiots like George Bush, Donald Rumsfeld, Tony Blair and Ariel Sharon just to name a few
  • Matreps and Minahreps. Don't taint our society. Throw yourselves down the drain and rid us of your stupidity please

    Disclaimer
    This blog is the property of Muhammad Sufyan. If you don't like it and have no constructive criticisms, please keep it to yourself. I'm sure someone else cares about them, cos I really don't have time for narrow-minded fools like you. Thank you very much. Oh, and please, throw yourself down the drain to and rid us of filth like you.
    • The Chosen Significant Other
  • **Azlin

    The Chosen Confidantes

  • Abdillah Agger*
  • Abang'Escaflowne'Din*
  • Adawiyah*
  • Adi*
  • Arep*
  • Amir(The Reverence)*
  • Amir(The Forgiver)*
  • Amalina*
  • Azhar*
  • Fhaizal Eleventhfinger Drummer*
  • Hadi Brengsek*
  • Friendster*
  • Haryanti*
  • Hilmi*
  • Kakak'Empress'Ain*
  • Liyana*
  • Lydia Natasya*
  • Mahirah*
  • Miza*
  • Nani*
  • Nazif*
  • Nurul*
  • N.Nadiah*
  • Ridzwan*
  • Shakinah*
  • SPMLS*
  • Suhailah*
  • Syafiq(Sarep)*
  • **Syafique Esperansas*
  • Syahid Masnor Gerrard*
  • Syikin*
  • Wan Emocore*
  • Zac*
  • Zee*

    • Monday, October 02, 2006

    9:28 pm

    Aren't you tired of being weak
    Such rage that you could scream all the stars out from the sky
    and destroy the prettiest starry night
    Every evening that I die

    Feeling rather fucked up, pissed, hurt , angry, dissappointed and oh-so emo right now. So get ready for one hell of a post. P.S: No one is spared. And I mean, no one.

    Firstly, stop telling me to let go of my anger or whatsoever. Unless you haven't noticed, I'm not angry. I'M FUCKED UP. If I'm a Jedi, I would have turned into a Dark Lord of the Sith right now. Ok, lets stop this crappy Star Wars talk. But the fucking thing is, I can't fathom the exact reason why I'm so pissed off right now. It's been awhile since I felt ths way. And right now, I'm trying hard not to give in to my anger. This bottled-up anger within me that I've kept for so long is straining under all these pressure. And soon, I fear its going to get free.

    And now, I've seen many people contradicting themselves. Syafique, you're one good example of this. Last time, you told me to always listen to my mind. Because what the heart says are often misleading. But dude, when I asked you whether or not I should turn back or just walk away, you told me to listen to my heart, which says turn back. Is that not contradicting?
    Dude, its not that I don't appreciate your help. I appreciate it alot. You are one of the few who I trust to confide in.

    And to some people out there, guys, shut up! Stop saying that life's unfair. Tell you this. Life's never meant to be fair. What shit you've been through, those are nothing. Nothing, I tell you.
    You wallow in your sorrow just because you didnt get something you want. You cry out because things didnt go your way.

    To these people, I'll give you a big FUCK YOU. If I can live with these shit people throw at me, with all these obstacles God put me through and I emerged victorious, then so can you. Tell me, did you witness two people die, watch you whole fucking world crumble and fall and got your heart broken so fucking bad all in just 8 FUCKING MONTHS?!

    That shit happened to me. See if you can top that. But do you see me wallowing, not wanting to go on with life or staring up to heavens yelling, "WHY ME?" ? NO! I don't. I just go on with my life, as battered as my soul may be, as pathetic as I feel. To you guys wallowing, tell you this, "Get the fucking hell up so you can fall again." Crazy? Maybe. But to me, the only way you learn, the only way you know is when you fall. So that you know what to do not to make the same bloody mistakes again. Experiencing pain makes you stronger to it. Experiencing pain will make you numb to it. And when you're numbed, you'll fear nothing

    I can't let go, no matter how hard my twin is telling me to. I just can't. Don't you see what's happening to me since I walked away? I'm losing control. Why? Maybe after what happened, it just makes me feel hopeless...pathetic and just oh-so fucking useless. I just feel as if nothing can turn right anymore. THAT is the effect you have on me. When you're here, I feel as if nothing could go wrong. Everytime I get angry, I just look at that beautiful smile of yours and my anger is faded away. But now, all those are gone. And all I have are memories of us.
    Zee, I don't want you here. I NEED you here...
    wihtout you, I'm a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold...

    Am I being too cryptic?
    Am I being too obscure?
    Love kills
    Romance is dead and I don't even trust myself
    But I love you
    And you can pull my wings apart
    and pin me down under glass
    until the end of days if it can help you discover that we share the same pain
    I just hope that you write your thesis before the subject is dead
    No life after death

    ___~Why do I even bother...